Friday, April 13

The Poison of My Pride

Read Psalm 32

Last night I went to bed upset. Twice.

Something happened that hurt my feelings and I tossed and turned with no resolution. My mind kept wandering back to my irritation. Then that little baby of mine woke me up around 2 am and I chose being mad over sleep once again.

When I finally woke up I felt a little better. But after reconsidering my fresh outlook, I decided that I still wanted to be upset. So that’s what I did. I put on a frown. Then I began rehearsing my accusing speech in my head that I would deliver to my husband when he got home.

That’ll teach him.

I packed up my kiddos and headed out to drop my oldest off at school. As I sat and waited for the teacher to open up the door a song came on that I haven’t heard in a very long time. The chorus leapt out of the speakers and grabbed ahold of me.

"Empty me 
Of the selfishness inside 
Every vain ambition 
And the poison of my pride 
And any foolish thing my heart holds to 
Lord empty me of me 
So I can be 
Filled with you"

You can’t avoid a message like that. God made sure to alert me of my faulty behavior. As I sat and hung my head and shed a few tears, I realized how unfair I was being. My husband doesn’t deserve to have me sitting at home stewing over something that he doesn’t even realize happened. It was never his intention to hurt my feelings, but it was my intention to hurt his by choosing to be mad at him.

Our pride can get us in a lot of trouble. We tend to have a ceaseless desire to be “right” instead of a desire to resolve.

My prayer for today is that I have a Christ like response to my relationships. I pray that I can react with love and patience rather than reply with anger and hostility. It’s going to take a lot of work but God wouldn’t suggest it if He thought I couldn’t do it.

I encourage you to choose to be glad today. Don’t look for reasons to be mad and pick apart the people you love until there is nothing left. Simply love them.

"Rejoice in the LORD and be glad..."

(Psalm 32:11)

Written By Ashley K.

1 comment:

Hippy Chick said...

Yes, love this. I am so guilty of this. Being mad at someone when they don't even have a clue they did anything to upset me. It's so stupid!!!